Well today is a day that is hard to wrap my brain around. I am going to attempt to speak tonight at my father's funeral. It mostly still seems surreal and I am a bit on auto-pilot, but I am determined to honor the man that has been such a big part of my life. It's been probably like a lot of greif, such a mixed bag of emotions. And it's also strange because there's so many moments I just want to go hide in a corner and be upset alone...but life as a mommy and wife doesn't work that way. I have found my daily duties in life a good distraction but am also trying to find time just to greive. It's an interesting process of letting go and celebrating a life all at the same time. If you are the praying sort...feel free to pray for me this evening around 7pm Eastern time, I will be speaking around then. I will attempt a tribute to my dad another day this week on the blog after I collect my thoughts!

And I cannot say enough how THANKFUL I am for every single one of you who has already helped us in some way or is offering to do so! We have felt so loved, supported, and encouraged. Those of you that have been praying, we feel it. Baby number 3 seems to be staying put for now, which we are greatful for...although at 37 weeks...I am ready to meet this child! From the bottom of our hearts, thank you all for everything!

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