Do you ever wake up on Monday morning with an overwhelmed feeling from all the responsibilities that lay ahead for you? I had this very experience this morning. Before 7:30 am I had dressed and fed children, the dog, cleaned up random messes, packed lunches, straightened collars, folded two loads of laundry, and all while walking around in a fog of dread. What am I dreading? I had to just sit down and ask myself this question.
I know that just waking up each morning is a blessed gift, so what is my problem? I think my problem is that I feel like I will never truly be "on top of things" like I want. I wake up thinking through family demands, business needs for my two different businesses, along with all the weight of bigger things we are praying through. I have seen God's faithfulness so clearly in some situations lately, so why do I still wake up thinking it's all up to me?
I sat down with my new reading plan from the She Reads Truth app and it of course, was exactly what I needed. The Bible reading for today was Psalm 105: 1- 45, which in summary is a story of God's people being a hot mess and Him being faithful through it all. The other reading for the day is 1 Thess 5: 16 - 18, "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." These verses fell fresh on me today and reading the devotional portion really challenged me. "His will is not as much as a path as it is a way of walking. Paul says as much [in these verses] in his letter to Thessalonica, when he reduces all our agonizing life questions to a non-formula... No hoops to jump through. No tests to pass. No situational tidiness required" (Amanda Williams).
So as I make the to-do list for today or ponder the bigger things of life that threaten to overwhelm me or tell a 3 year old why he can't eat cheez-it's for breakfast....I am going to try to keep perspective. I am praying I can remember today that God hasn't left me, I am enough and I might never be fully "on top of things." It's ok not to have it all perfect! Hope you have a good start to your week!
Now here's some sunshine for you from fall mini sessions!